I'm writing this on the day after our adoption hearing. I'm writing this as the forever mother of 3 beautiful children. I'm writing this as quite possibly the happiest mama on earth. It took us 2 1/2 years to get here...2 1/2 years full of uncertainty, fear, heartache, and complete and utter joy. 2 years ago, we were getting ready to celebrate our 1st and what we thought would be our only Christmas with Jayde and Chandler. Our adoption had just fallen through and we had two beautiful children in our home to pick up the pieces of our broken hearts. We were in love with them but trying (and failing) not to give our hearts completely as we "knew" they would soon be leaving. My sovereign God knew they would never leave and He knew our precious Rowan was on the way. And we just knew He was holding us tight through every bit of our journey. We didn't know the ending...just knew we'd be okay because He wrote it. Well...as it turns out, we'll NEVER miss another Christmas, birthday, or milestone in their lives. God chose us to be theirs. And we are honored and amazed at His choice. I've been reading the cards we received over and over and just trying to process our reality. We knew our day was coming...but the gravity of it all is fabulously overwhelming. I thought about reading through the last few years of my prayer journal, but I fear the tears might just flood my house:)
The hearing went smoothly, all 3 kids behaved perfectly, I was able to keep my emotions in check...well until I saw another adoptive family exiting the court room we were about to enter. Our attorney told us they had just adopted their 5th and 6th child and I just looked at their beautiful family and the tears came rolling. This was before our hearing even started so I was a bit nervous I was now out of control. But I recovered and even made it through our attorney's questions with very happy dry eyes:) Our friends and family were there with us and we had a party in the evening to celebrate... the whole day was just plain perfect. I feel so complete, so in love, SO blessed. The wait is over. We have 3 children with our last name and there are no words that could justly describe how I feel. I'm on a high and I never want to come down:) When we began our journey as foster parents, I never would have dared to dream this big. Saying goodbye was a job requirement...and now we'll never have to say goodbye...not like that. We're forever family and every chapter of our story now seems more beautiful than ever!
Crazy Mama Crook